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A pot of boiling enthusiasm and passion cannot continue to simmer without a constant flame. My mother is that flame. When my father lost his job around my 12th birthday I had just discovered the art of photography. I was so passionate about taking pictures that I could hardly sleep at night.

Because there was no discretionary money after my dad was retrenched, I was unable to buy film or chemicals for developing my photographs. I was heartbroken but understood the circumstances, so I hid my disappointment to save my parents from feeling any worse than they already did.

There were absolutely no jobs to be had for kids my age so there was no way for me to get money to buy film for myself.

My parents struggled financially for a number of years and during that time my mom began making little felt-stuffed dolls called Gonks. They were round, red little characters with Beatle haircuts. One morning I overheard my mom on the phone. She was in tears and talking to her friend Millicent. I put my ear to the door like any twelve year old eaves-dropper would do. Between her sniffles I heard my mom tell her friend that she only needed to sell a few more Gonks to have enough money to buy film and chemicals for me. I heard her say, “He is so passionate about photography. You should see his eyes when he talks about it. It breaks my heart because I know he is dying to take pictures.”

Two weeks later my mom called me into my room and shut the door. She handed me a roll of film, some photographic paper and chemicals. She asked me to please not say anything to anyone about it, especially my dad, because the money was needed elsewhere.

I hugged my mom and thanked her profusely. I was so excited I just wanted to burst.

“I’ll take great pictures for you,I promise” I said.

“Don’t worry about taking great pictures for me.” she said. “Just have fun.”

As she walked out of the door I noticed she was crying. “Mom,” why are you crying?” I asked.

“Because I just love you so much.” She said, ruffling my mop of curly hair.

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ameliaa [ 06:45 ]

i dont get it.

like my mum,she just minum my tea just like that without asking me when she know i will scream on top of my lungs even if its just about the tea.

no,it is not about the tea.

it's about respect.

yes probably you dont get what i mean.from my point of view is, probably this is what my mum tengah thinking :

mummy: aiyah. she will be okay with it la. its just chinese tea. she wont get mad la.
im her mum,i'll just make a tea for her if she really really wants to drink.
aiyah. whatever la. make her go do it herself.

no,i didnt scream on top of my lungs because my dad bagi aku yogurt :D

half of my friends are all like that,
as in the whole chinese tea thing.

so yeah amanda, wheres the kodek you promised me?

aiyah. its amelia. nevermind la. she dont even kodek so much. i finished hers so whatever lah nevermind. she wont get mad wannnnnnn.

NO.
I GIVE A FUCK.

the only reason why i didnt really say anything about it
i dont want to make a big deal about it.
but no,you guys just had to cross the line.

aiyah. amelia whos stepping your head nowwww ? no la where got.

think about it and pray tonight,
goodnight :)

ameliaa [ 05:20 ]

Saturday

holga with fisheye.
O.O
I KNOOOWWWWWWWWW.
the lomo of my dreams :'(
i want all of them :D

ameliaa [ 05:21 ]

Thursday

you promise her not to make her feel insecure again,
but no,you didnt.

ameliaa [ 06:19 ]

i love eva longoria.
she makes me happy :)

ameliaa [ 05:38 ]

Wednesday

michael (mi ka' el) in taman aman.
photoshoot was okay today.

will update more pictures later :)

ameliaa [ 08:17 ]

Monday

ikea, sunday.

ameliaa [ 06:16 ]

i present you ,

kurasaraksasa.
i swear ive never heard of that brand but they say they came up with the name and the logo before me.

pfft. whatever. just because im a nobody doesnt mean that you guys are the one who got the name first okay.

dont talk cock with me,kim. just because youre going to some fucking rich college now it doesnt mean that you know everything. youre in college now,well do learn new things. stop shitting me with your shortcuts on the keyboard with your adobe or your magnetic lasso.

shut the fuck up.

i dont need pressure man. i dont care.

so i came up with a name,

susugetah.
something very malaysian.
entah. sorry la for my horrible english these days.

so tell me,what do you think ?
will you ever buy a bag name susugetah from me ? :D

ameliaa [ 05:05 ]

i'm a failure without you.

" Without you, I've been standing 'round like a statue,
laying on the floor thinking about you, I talk
to myself like the crazies do, otherwise I'm great, what about you?"

-statue,low millions.

ameliaa [ 04:25 ]

Friday

click to view.

model : kimm.
before steal the limelight,

actually i want to comment sikit, this model ah. you just tell her to pose,then she will pose for you. one of the best lohhhh. wa cakap sama lu,pecaya wa.

will updated more tomorrow,
i wanna talk to my baby :))

goodnight.

ameliaa [ 08:47 ]

Thursday

virginity is important,
promises with boys are all fake,
they do it just to get you naked on the bed.
and have sex with you.

no im not here to start a anti-boys club.
but to be honest with you,
no matter what kinda guy yadayada ,
sweet guy
hot guy
older guy
younger guy
family guy
anyone with a penis,
big balls
small balls
fat dicks
small dicks,
they all want sex.

it was heat of the moment ?
fuck that shit.
say no if you can :)
i know the sexual urge man.

will update more laterr :)

ameliaa [ 04:59 ]

Wednesday

ameliaa [ 06:42 ]

Tuesday

i look like fuck in pictures so yeah. thats mike david amanda and fran :D

the after party hahahahah XD

ameliaa [ 04:51 ]

Saturday

uvnation oh oh oh
im in fran's place now will blog about it later.

but the bomb here is :
MY BABY IS BACK FROM HOLIDAYS :D
WHOAWWRRRRRRR

p/s: goo goo ga ga :D

ameliaa [ 23:46 ]

Friday

something for you to go awwwwwww at ? something is wrong with my english o.o

yeah baby me. fat gila kan ?

ameliaa [ 21:35 ]

Thursday

hey that fucking fake ids is fucking expensive okay.
its not only fucking 30 cents so fucking bugging me.
yamcha is not enough to even cover back for the fucking ink or the paper.
so STOP BUGGING ME.
i dont get paid for doing this for you.
so its my choice whether to do it for you or not.

and i aint gonna go all the way there to give you those ids.
you have to come and look for me.

good day :)

ameliaa [ 22:20 ]

tuition is over. tomorrow is my holiday. :D
in ktm with my sisters today :

i was standing on the other side of the door ,
looking out the windows for signboards and squirrels.
pfft. and POOF. this guy over here, with a big buldge (i dont know how to spell that shit)
under his pants. god, its disgusting. hehehe and i took a picture of it , gambar ni aku tak edit okay !

* ew. guys.dont masturbate sampai gila babi. think : unbalanced shape of
your balls,one smaller than the other and uncontrolable erection ! ew ew ew ew *

oh then we saw maisarah. hello maisarah :D

here our malay ,female version of gareth gates.

in times square, folio shop +

that coin pusher machine. and the bandit machine ? o.o
dont you just love miniature game machines ? :D

WET AND HARD :))
________________________________________

Why did God create men?
Because vibrators can't mow the lawn.
--madonna Dangerous Game (1993)

male's brain

good day mate.
:D

ameliaa [ 06:59 ]

Wednesday

mv,
hartamas , last night :)

fran drove kirstie's mum car (little savvy ke myvi ?)
out to midvalley,bukit jalil,puchong,oldtown and sungai way :D

iman and amanda. i swear iman was squeezing her tits !
im just kidding la.
why would iman wanna do that ?
she can get mutiple orgasms by just squeezing her own tits.

breakers ? under eighteen ?
fucking pool tables are all so fucking small.
now i know, adults are all midgets.
but that shisha place ,ahh. :D you know im smiling.

poser picture by selina. ITS A BATMAN TSHIRT :D
in francesca's place. oh i kinda miss her room.

ANYWAY, its fucking 3 am in the morning.
im gonna blog more tomorrow.
i need teh susu.
i need my baby princess :(

ameliaa [ 11:29 ]

Monday

i wont get kicked out from school from blogging about her tattoo. i wont be hated for the rest of my life for this. i will still have her in my friend list. and and and i dont have to make out with anyone to get her tattoo. :) yeah.im the bitch today.

for all the muslims (no,im not a racist. i have a bunch of malay friends in school) please. tattoos arent for you people.

*especially those underage bitches la,yes i understand. go against the rule, fuck your own dog,go to clubs and give blowjobs to random people but please,tattoos are permanent. yes,probably youre rolling your eyes while reading this and say,"havent you heard of laser-ing,mofo ? " hello, laser-ring mahal tau. its even more expensive than getting a tattoo. if youre too rich,host my web.*

im serious.

i have my own web. but im too lazy to update my htmls. click milkteeth.

respect your god. i think drinking and wearing all those pakaian yang menjolok mata are all okay.( i have nothing against your culture okay,dont get me wrong) we are all humans. and sex is good. please. i think its normal for a muslim to have sex. even before kahwin. its keperluan harian. seriously. DO YOU AGREE WITH ME ?then drop something into the box :)

drop into the chatbox la.

back to the whoa part.
yes. kimberly tong got her tattoo
its a V.
V for vanilla.
vaginaaaaaa !

ameliaa [ 04:44 ]

Sunday

"A true friend stabs you in the front."
-anonymous

ameliaa [ 04:45 ]

Saturday

babyy i miss you so so so much.
my two weeks of holidays damn fucked up la.
3-7 hours of tuition everyday.
baby baby baby baby :'(
i need you,

one more day to go :D
i just cant wait.

i miss your smell.
i miss your sepet eyes.
i wanna hold hold your hands and give you big big big hugs when i see you.
im gonna kiss you all over your face *drools*
hehehehehe
yes la i know aku ni manja sangat
whats wrong with being mushy with the girl you love ? pfft (:

baby i love you.

ameliaa [ 02:05 ]

Friday

dear mum,

ameliaa [ 22:02 ]

happy 2nd month anny babyy.

gila lah.
it is still so hard to believe this.
im with this beautiful lady,
the girl ive been talking about for quite some time,
(months eh ?)

dah two months dahh.
i wonder how she can tahan me hehehe
i know la baby
im very very very mean. grr.
hehehe
i love you so muchie muchie.
and er, i dont like hongkong :D

ameliaa [ 04:43 ]